Life suddenly changed for Joan Didion. Her husband, John had massive heart attack and he left her when their daughter was in hospital. Having been with John for forty years, she describes the devastating story of her first year after his death and the grief that enveloped her. She relates her very personal experiences and her unavoidable pain. She keeps herself busy in taking care of her sick daughter and is scared of losing her too. Didion kept expecting her husband to come back and was always surrounded by memories and sudden tears. Although she knew this thought was irrational but it kept her going. Read it for a simply honest, heart wrenching story of a woman's love for her husband and child.